How is it that this week is going so exceptionally well? How is it that this week — where I am suddenly sick and tired from air travel, where I’m out of ideas of what AIV needs to do to grow and confused as to what I’m supposed to do next, where going into work has been an act of will because I don’t feel that I have anything to offer — has been one of the best of the year?
How did our final AIV community group meeting end up being one of the best this fall? 10 people were there, and they spent over 20 minutes sharing and processing the material. And almost all of us stayed to get food together after! I felt grossly underprepared since the topic was heavy (repentance!) and I returned to Charlottesville only 5 hours before it started.
How come all my student meetings felt so anointed? Every single one this week seemed to go so well! – the sweet and fun conversation with the OYFA 2nd-year officer who I met so providentially this month, the talks about being a real man with all its responsibility, the 1st-year AIVer who’s learning about real Christ-like leadership. I’ve felt both spiritually and physically inadequate to the task every time.
How is it that all the discipleship groups went so deep? Our Wednesday guys group was one of our most open and honest. The Thursday one-on-one was so powerful, since we recognized how all spiritual activity is to be done under grace and not out of guilt. And all of them have re-upped for more next semester. Really? Discipling isn’t even a primary gift of mine…
I suppose all of these things came to pass because God is good and generous and His word does not return to Him void. Even in my frailness this week, God was no less present and powerful for every single person who needed something. Though I felt less eloquent or clear-headed, whatever I said was somehow, miraculously, inevitably, no less true or powerful. I suppose it is because His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in my weakness. I suppose it is because when I am weak, then I am strong. And I suppose, for everyone involved (including me), this really is good news.
Perhaps I should continue to take my cues from that passage – 2 Corinthians 12:1-12 – and end on this: “Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”